A beautiful morning

Every morning when I woke up, I was accustomed to the dread pouring over me as soon as I became aware enough to understand that a new day had started. The idea of excelling, attending school or work, socializing, and handling daily responsibilities filled me with immediate worry and anxiety.

Waking up in the morning nowadays is a whole new and improved experience. I'm still not particularly fond of mornings, as I find it challenging to leave my warm bed during the dark and cold winter days. It always takes me some time to wake up, whether well-rested or sleep-deprived; that is when the alarm clock doesn't force me to jolt out of bed instantly.

The difference now is that I no longer experience anxiety about the day ahead. Whether it's a challenging day, when I feel tired or down, or just a busy and stressful day, I handle it differently. I might have a cup of coffee or acknowledge that some days require more time and effort.

Unlike before, I now possess sufficient self-assurance to confront any challenges that might come my way in everyday life. My focus is no longer solely on making it through each day, as persistent feelings of discomfort, sadness, anxiety, or apprehension no longer plague me. I understand that my day doesn't need to be flawless for my overall well-being, as life has its ups and downs.

Although there are days when I feel low, I acknowledge that taking time to relax and rejuvenate will lead to improvement. I have also noticed that I often feel down and irritable before recognizing any physical illness.

During days when I am unwell or struggling, I allow myself to feel achy, indulge in self-pity for feeling unwell, and relax in bed watching TV. I understand that this phase will pass, and I should not dwell too much on the negative thoughts and emotions that come with being sick.

Nevertheless, I am experiencing an increasing number of good days when I feel enthusiastic about my activities, whether working on tasks or hobbies, visiting the gym, or connecting with friends and family (either in person or online). I have discovered that I can wake up feeling refreshed and eager to take on the day's challenges.

I find it fascinating that it has taken me some time to acclimate to experiencing such positive days and become accustomed to the realization that my life has significantly improved. Adapting to the idea that one's life can change for the better demands a similar effort as adjusting to negative changes. Therefore, I am still exploring living a fulfilling life or having a good day.

I have observed that I am usually more stable. I have more significant influence over my emotions by reducing activities that negatively affect me and by not dwelling on potential challenges or problems that are unlikely to happen.

I prioritize activities that bring me joy. I spend time with individuals who share my interests and have enjoyable conversations with me. I am more observant of my surroundings, discovering opportunities and potentials that are accessible to me for the first time. I feel content and relish the present moment.