An ending and a new beginning

Some people believe that the end of the year offers an opportunity for a fresh start, and I interpreted that quite literally this year.

Specifically, at the beginning of the year, I experienced one of the most significant moments of growth in my life. This was unexpected, considering that just a few days earlier, I had written a column discussing impatience and the significance of taking small steps in one's personal development journey.

There have been several "aha moments" when I suddenly realized things about myself and my circumstances, but that's precisely what occurred over the New Year. I can't pinpoint the cause, but suddenly, all the concerns I've harboured about not being as adequate as I am and my anxieties about the potential outcomes of allowing myself to step forward and be visible vanished.

Suddenly, I realized it was perfectly normal for me to be just the way I am and that I had every right to exist and share my thoughts and experiences just like anyone else. This realization came after a challenging period in my life, which lasted longer than I had hoped. Yet, I've come to understand that such breakthroughs often occur after a phase of constant setbacks and feelings of hopelessness.

My prolonged struggles have led me to reflect on various aspects of my life, prompting me to view things from a different perspective. Despite my initial doubts, I eventually had to accept and have faith that everything was unfolding as it was meant to.

Deep down, I knew that the answers to my issues didn't lie externally but within myself. While I couldn't change my circumstances, I could manage my responses. Consequently, I dedicated my time to self-improvement, resulting in positive internal and external transformations.

As I began to notice improvements in my mood and behaviour, I also secured employment after a prolonged period of being jobless. Despite facing rejections when applying for roles similar to my previous ones, I eventually landed a position as a digital media project manager at Geðhjálp, which aligns perfectly with my strong interest in mental health.

I find it incredible to be able to contribute to projects that I genuinely believe will make a difference for others. Additionally, I feel that this environment allows me to express myself freely and voice my opinions. The positive transformations I am experiencing demonstrate that it is possible to surpass obstacles and challenges, ultimately reaching a fulfilling life aligned with one's true self.

During this challenging period, I have learned that I don't need to constantly control and manipulate situations to fit my predetermined idea of what is best and right for me. It is possible that what appears to be going awry is necessary for my journey and intended destination.