Keeping the faith

Even before delving into spirituality, I have always connected strongly with my intuition.

Without a clear destination, I followed my interests and pursued my dreams with determination despite my fears and uncertainties. I decided which schools to attend, which fields of study to choose from, and which cities and countries to live and learn in without extensive prior research.

Without a long-term plan, I proceeded by taking one step after another, allowing life to unfold naturally. Eventually, I found myself disconnected from my intuition. Although I continued to push beyond my comfort zone, I started hesitating to seize every opportunity that aligned with my desires. Doubts crept in about my path, questioning whether it was the right one and if it would lead to success.

After I was laid off from my job, a phase of immense uncertainty followed. I attempted to persist in my usual approach by applying for positions that matched my qualifications and background, yet none of my efforts bore fruit. At times, I didn't even receive an interview, while on other occasions, I progressed to subsequent rounds of interviews only to be ultimately rejected. As my savings dwindled, I grew increasingly anxious about the future as rejections continued to mount.

Although that situation was difficult, in retrospect, I can appreciate how beneficial it has been for me. If I had quickly found another job similar to what I was doing, I wouldn't have been compelled to reconsider my career path and identify my true passions. I would have likely opted for the security of a comfortable job with a decent salary without much consideration for anything else.

Instead, I got the chance to have faith and confidence in the teachings of my spiritual practice, to surrender and release preconceived notions about how things ought to be, and to embrace the life that is truly destined for me. My task was to have faith that everything was unfolding as it should, even if it didn't appear so on the outside. Whatever I experience at any given moment is precisely what is meant to occur in my life at that juncture, even if the reasons are not immediately apparent.

The foundation of this trust lies in the belief that a higher force exists, regardless of the name one assigns to it, whether God, the universe, or one's higher self, that leads one onwards. My knowledge, and that of my mind or ego, are inherently restricted, but by relinquishing the need to control everything and placing trust in this force, I am confident that life will propel me forward. The greater my ability to unwind, go with the flow, and allow events to unfold naturally, the more successful I become.

Allowing things to unfold doesn't imply inaction; I follow my intuition, as I have done before. I know what actions are best for me, as they spark excitement and even fear within me since venturing beyond my comfort zone and achieving success can be daunting.

Believing in a higher power allows me to remain receptive to the possibility that my dreams may manifest unexpectedly, exceeding my expectations. I find solace in the knowledge that I don't have to have all the answers; I need to move forward with trust, confident that it will lead to positive outcomes.